no matter how hard you try,
these shots, they're never gonna take me..
i have only changed a tiny bit on the inside.
i'm a little more confident in being alive.
i don't cut myself. i don't do drugs.
i don't cry ALL the time because i can't
have everything back the way it was again.
i don't freak out when someone says i'm pretty,
'cause now i know i am.
i have changed on the inside for the better, if anything.
i'm sorry i don't want to feed into your chinese mind games anymore,
and that's another thing i've changed.
i don't take crap from anyone anymore,
and i think THAT's what you don't like that i've changed.
but i like it, so sucks for you.
as for the outwards appearance,
i think i've also gone for the better.
i'm thinner, no make-up, better hair
i wear hollister and shorts now.
i'm not like i was with black everything,
caked on make-up cause i hated my face,
closed toed shoes ALL the time,
and if someone even mentioned shorts
i'd get self-conscious as all get out.
i'm just all around more comfortable.
and i'm sorry that if me not wanting to be brought down by someone
makes me seem concetied and stuck-up,
but i'm not.
my emotions are the same as before,
my heads still in a good place.
i'm just less nervous to step outside is all.
so again, sorry i'm not into being controlled by you anymore.
actually, no i'm not, but anyhow.
i am sorry that this was turbo long
and no one will get this far but yeah.
i'm not THAT different,
just better.
i'm, in essence, cheyanne 2.O
:D