Your Trippen'

I'm the man on the moon;
I'm gonna do what I do- so do you.

New chapter in my life;
moving forward, moving on.
Air Force Applications have been sent.
If worst comes to worst, I'll simply enlist.
There's nothing left for me here-
I've taken what I've needed and I'm moving forward with it.
I've had lovers, haters, friends and enemies.
-and the sad part is even the lovers hate me-
but I'm pressing forward now.
a changed person
-a BETTER person-
because of all the influences I've had.
so thank you, all of you.
I hope that you too one day will accept everything for what it was,
and think the best of your situation.

and remember; regret nothing-
you've done what you've done
because at some point that's what you wanted to do..

stay hungry; stay foolish. <3

dreams are a form of insight
on how you really feel;
what you truly want.
maybe we should pay them more mind than usual..

remember when i tried
i'd never strayed too far from you
-forever by your side-
no matter what i was going through.
now i never know the things to say to you;
to help me prove that i'm still on your side.
-i never show just what you do to me-
so i guess i'll be what's always wrong.

you know i can't have you here;
with someone else on your skin.

and it's all my fault for not getting off
-but you made it start-
can you please make it stop?

everything i could give;
was everything you wouldn't take.

I hate that you see me this way;
'cause it takes a while to stop waiting up,
-to get over the need-
wasting time with you.
I'd take a life for you,
to spend my life with you.
but in the end you'll always leave..
[you never loved me]

what have you done this time?
there is no place i'd rather be right now;
i follow the light in the center -i'd follow you forever.
follow you now, i've been gone too long.

i remember when we could last this out.
can you see where we both are now?
are you feeling this?
i feel it in my bones.
this was truth..

i gave you the chance you begged for;
but you ran back to her in spite it.

who would've known how bittersweet this would taste?
i hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited;
but i couldn't stay away, i couldn't fight it.
i hoped you'd see my face & you'd be reminded;
that for me, it isn't over..

you win.

not because you're more superior;

but rather due to forfeit on my part.

haveanicelife..

i said i'd never let you go;

and i never did..

[i really hate how seperate we've become.. :/]

it's been a long time;

since you gave me butterflies.
it's been a long time;
since i seen it burning in your eyes..
if only you'd understand how strongly i feel for you..
:/

The things we think about at night never lose taste.
[you're all i ever think about..]

i'm not the same kid from your memories,
i've changed too much to even come close to being what you expect.
you wouldn't like me now..
so consider yourself lucky that i've withdrawn myself from you..

promise me to think of us as a time so beautiful;
promise me to look back on us as a time in your life you enjoyed..

the absence of you is killing me- more than you are aware i'm sure.

what's done is done. your pain is mine.

i'm in the building; you just on the list of guest names.
i'm single, swaggin', and ready to get out there again.
so change ya game for me. ;]

and i'm burning all the letters;
hoping that i might forget her and the bad taste
that she left when she was leaving me
-a life of barely breathing-
as she walked out of this place...
fml. :/

i'll come back for you, love, i promise to.
please save this for me, for until i return my love will burn,
and my heart will stay with you.
♥
i love how there's always ways to keep people out of contact with you.
:]
thank you creep-protectant internet.

and i might drive myself insane,
if those lips aren't speaking my name..

cause we only have one life;
the timing and the moment
-all seem so right-
so, would you say you're mine..?
..we'll be just fine..

as i fade away, you reach out your hand..
please don't let me go..

i gotta get some sleep..
i'm not gonna be up for a while..
sleep deprivation isn't something i like messing with..
it literally makes you insane..
not even kidding, go bing it, it's not just me anymore..
there's proof that i'm not the only one who starts losing track of time
and starts having little heart spasms...
i knew i was normal somehow..

you see many will call;

but very few are chosen.
looking at the wall;
you can feel them closing.
baby, what the hell wrong with them?
♥

from the top of the world

they'll let everyone know;

that your biggest fear is letting go..

today was an alright day.
i took pictures, and the picture lady almost got punched.
here's some peekshurs of how i looked today.
:DD
yes, i'm a hollister fag.

watch my face as i pretend to feel no pain.
today was a fairly good day, i'd like to think.
in TV productions we were going through a closet
and me and jacian found a wand the was a prop replica
of the witch's wand from Narnia and so i hopped on his back,
got some fairy wings and we ran around the class like that for a bit.
then peacock put on the gorilla suit and we were just messing around.
after we got all done with being complete dumb faces we made this little board.

i'm gonna hang it on my wall, it's pretty nifty.
thank god for distraction-able people.
:]

lighting strikes inside my chest keep me up at night;
i dream of ways to make you understand my pain.
God only knows how much i'd love you if you let me;
but i cant break through it all..
:/
there's no warfare, this is just heartbreak..

it's funny how the tables turn so quickly..
not a humorous kinda funny,
but the kinda funny that you have to force
to keep yourself from crying..
gotta be honest, this one came right out of the blue..

my bestie is my world.
these pictures are turboo old.
but they still bring a smile to my face everytime.
:]

i'm that man on the moon
and imma do what i do, so you do you.

it's just not healthy to be this happy..
..pshh, who needs health anyhow..?
:]

"...and then elliott knocked me over.."-brittany
"good boy elliott, good boy."-me
"hey hey hey. you're just mad cause you lost to a crippled.."-brittany
"MY YELLOW BUTTON WAS BROKED!"-me
"rriiigghhtt.."-brittany and diana
*takes brittany's crutches*

i think i've finally found the crowd i'm gonna
be with for the next 3 months.
they dun talk and when they do it's to ask
about food or what movie is next.
this weekend was exactly what i needed..
some antisocial social time.

and when the smoke is cleared,
there will be nobody left..

so i'm sitting in class today and
some girl who has been in some of my classes
but i never talk to just walks up to me and goes
"ya know, you remind me of lea from the bad girls club..
like 1000% dead honest, you do.."
and then walks away and sits down.
soo being the curious cat i am
i googled this "lea" andd yeah.
i guess it was a compliment...?
aha. everyone's weird but me i swear.

:DD
watch it.
all the way through.
it's niftyyy.

i don't know how you got into me;
down my throat and made a home in my veins...

i'm gauging my ears.
endofdiscussion.
how big though?
i was thinking maybe either a 12 or 10 at the lowest..
jobs tend to not like huge gauges..
but i'm kinda kercited.
:]

if we let our love off of its leash
do you fear like i fear, how fierce it could be?
♥♥♥♥♥♥

you're all i hoped i'd find in every single way. but everything i could give; is everything you couldn't take. i'mmm a flammer. anddd i went to the beach yesterday. :] iloveit. gots muh tan on. my skin is like almost black now. well, except for my face. >.<

yayy kids' room. their mirrors are HUGE.

kept the time by the patterns of the streetlight

i need to find someone who doesn't talk to hang out with.
not much in the mood for talking,
just in the mood to not be so lonely..

just know i need you here;
i need you near me now..

no matter what i do, i will always carry you in my heart;
you'll always be my shooting star.
autumn days will fade away,
but memories always stay the same.
-i'm hoping you'll never change-

i'm missing your warm smile.
i guess it's no surprise, i can't forget you..

mess up my dreams and somebody's gonna die tonight.

i miss you chels chels..

but but but look what i did in school today.

BE PROUD OF ME.

i learn photoshop.

teehee

^__^

and the ground will break when they bury me.

now head toward the light,

the dark has no place here.

'cause it's locked away.

i'm better now. :]

riddle me this batman:
why do tampon boxes give measurements in grams?
does everyone but me, like, go home and say
"oh hey, let me go on ahead and measure how many
grams of liquid hell is coming from my vag!"
i mean, how would you even go about that?
do you just hold a measuring cup there
for a couple hours and see what you get, like fishing?
WHO HAS TIME TO DO THAT?
..wierdo tampon-makers..
O.o?

or you can just put on your dancing shoes
and get loose with me. ;]

went to D.C this past weekend.
twas FAN-tastic.
:]
wants peekshurs?
of course.

;D yeeaah booiiyyy

in the indian museum. :D

indian garden. :]

me stopping the metro with my awesome powers. ;D

"look dad, a real live dead guy! imma get the picture before the police do. *snap*"
:DD

DC itself :

Supah-murnn ;D

apparently i'm holding an old guy. O.

the stops of the metro.
they're utterly amazing, and underground.
it's like a secret beneath-the-surface organization..
O_O

you should know what this is.
aha

The "Event" in which i attended. :D

look how many freggin' people there were!

The Best Museum of All Evers:

canoes.

my tribe [well, one of them.]

say whaaat?

HUGE freggin' squirrel.

"i still have your underwear."
"i still have your virginity!"

juno= new favorite movie.
:D

BLI I AM A KRAY-KEN FROM THE SEA!

no matter how hard you try,
these shots, they're never gonna take me..

i have only changed a tiny bit on the inside.
i'm a little more confident in being alive.
i don't cut myself. i don't do drugs.
i don't cry ALL the time because i can't
have everything back the way it was again.
i don't freak out when someone says i'm pretty,
'cause now i know i am.
i have changed on the inside for the better, if anything.
i'm sorry i don't want to feed into your chinese mind games anymore,
and that's another thing i've changed.
i don't take crap from anyone anymore,
and i think THAT's what you don't like that i've changed.
but i like it, so sucks for you.
as for the outwards appearance,
i think i've also gone for the better.
i'm thinner, no make-up, better hair
i wear hollister and shorts now.
i'm not like i was with black everything,
caked on make-up cause i hated my face,
closed toed shoes ALL the time,
and if someone even mentioned shorts
i'd get self-conscious as all get out.
i'm just all around more comfortable.
and i'm sorry that if me not wanting to be brought down by someone
makes me seem concetied and stuck-up,
but i'm not.
my emotions are the same as before,
my heads still in a good place.
i'm just less nervous to step outside is all.
so again, sorry i'm not into being controlled by you anymore.
actually, no i'm not, but anyhow.
i am sorry that this was turbo long
and no one will get this far but yeah.
i'm not THAT different,
just better.
i'm, in essence, cheyanne 2.O
:D

who are you to try and rule my world?
shut your mouth cause i'm talkin' now.

we wrote our names in blood.
forbidden to remember, terrified to forget.
it's a hard line to walk..

william ray stark IV: i miss you more than i miss anyone.
you were the best possible person to me, and somewhere
down the road, i messed everything up. i hope one day
that you'll forgive me for everything i've done.

heather louise bailey: i miss how we used to be friends.
it was nice, having someone who was exactly like me
and understood everything i've done, but not judge me even a little.
you and i had a nice friendship until i crossed the line.

other cheyenne: you'll take care of her i know that. you'll do a better job.

alexandra cheyenne wallaur: we were at one point very good friends.
certain circumstances didn't allow us to be friends any longer.
you've changed, and i didn't like it. there's no possible future.

taylor paige pearce: you and me were so tight in haines city.
we both moved to lake region and you got wrapped up
in a different crowd than i. haven't talked to you in months.

rachel lynn holley: i dunno what happend to you.
it's honestly like you fell off the face of the earth.
i hope you're doing fine.
still willing to go to boston with some bats.
batbihh and wonderhoe to the rescue!
:]

april jean holman: you were nice while you lasted.
but for some reason, you didn't last.

anthony alan brooks: you don't deserve a mentioning in this,
but oh well. you've done nothing my whole life but bring me down.
i don't regret you, but i'm glad we are where we are.

and last but not least
chelsea nichole peebles: you've put up with my crap for so long.
i commend you for your tolerance.
we will be best friends forever.
and not the cliche forever in "BFFs"
but actually forever.
i look forward to our apartment
with wolf cubs and chocolate labs.
:DD

who makes pies at 11:30 at night?

i do.

with lakota.

it's chocolate.

and it's delicious.

and i'm fattt.

want some?

come get some.

^__^

nom nom nom.

teehee.

there comes a point in your life

when you realize who matters.

who never did, who wont anymore and who always will.

so don't worry about people from your past;

there is a reason they didn't make it to your future..

straighten up your tie;

take the microphone.

forget about it, don't let it get you down.

now is not the time, and you're not alone.

-so shut up about it-

no one can take you down now.

in order to love me, you must know what i am.

i am native american.

i sing with the wolves,

dance with the deer and

swim with the fish.

i am native american.

my skin is red like blood,

my hair is black like night

and my eyes are brown like the trees in which we live

i am native american

with the earth beneath my feet,

bow strung between my fingers

and the wind hinting me forward

i am native american

fire is as much my brother as the members of my tribe.

i must learn to listen,

yet be stubborn enough to know when to stay.

i am native american.

i have native blood through my veins and

as much beauty as the land on which i hunt.

i am native american.

i live to smile at death.

the creed:

the earth is your mother, care for her.

honor all your relations

open your heart and soul to the Great Spirit

all life is sacred; treat all beings with respect

take from the earth what is needed and nothing more.

do what needs to be done for the good in others

give constant thanks to the Great Spirit for each new day

speak the truth, but only for the good in others

follow the rhythms in nature; rise and retire with the sun

enjoy life's journey, but leave no tracks.

being indian is mainly in your heart.

it's a way of walking with the earth instead of upon it.

a lot of the history books talk about us Indians in the past tense, but we don't plan on going anywhere... we have lost so much, but the thing that holds us together is that we all belong to and are protectors of the earth; that's the reason for us being here.

mother earth is not a resource, she is an heirloom.